i want and i will

I want to,
And I will learn to love, the way i learned to fear.
I want to,
And I will leave behind my young and troubled years.
I want to,
And I will love those i want to hate.
I want to,
And I will let myself fall free to fate.

I wanted to,
And I have planted seeds and watched them grow.
I wanted to,
And I have had broken hearts, i let them go.
I wanted to,
And I have learned to forgive and forget.
I wanted to,
And I have counted the blessings I have met