To prove a point

She wrapped herself in the Jolly Roger as she had to dive overboard naked, damn the crew and their fear of the old superstitions. didn’t they know who she was? The cold water wrapped around her and she almost screamed from the sudden shock; it took her a few minutes to gather her bearings and find her way back to her ship, she then quickly gathered her hat from the water and smiled to her first mate as he helped her up from the sea

I broke today

I broke today.
I burst into thousands of splinters all over your floor.
My pieces were to small to pick up by hand,
And to sharp to touch without gloves.
You stared endlessly at the ground
Where my pieces began to move.
They wiggled and rolled and spun around.
They tried to make words,
But the words they were forming didn't make sense.
You looked puzzled and grabbed a broom
And just swept me away....

i think it's interesting.

I think it's interesting that after all this time we still missed each other. We still thought about each other.
I think its interesting how after months of not saying a word to each other or seeing each other, the first time we exchange glances, both of our hearts start racing.
I think it's interesting that the first time we hug it lasted for more than a minute and the first words you spoke were " God i've missed you."
I think it's that the first time we kissed after being apart for months was perfect, and tender, and passionate
I think it's interesting the way we text and talk to each other like we never missed a beat.
I think it's interesting we both want to give this another try.

And I'm happy because



God I've missed you.

Return

You tell me to move on but I wonder what if I don’t;
What if I hold on?
I could move mountains with these feelings.
Would you realize the amount I love you then?
Take it in your hands and be grateful you’d been given such an emotion.
Realize that maybe, over time you could return it?

i want and i will

I want to,
And I will learn to love, the way i learned to fear.
I want to,
And I will leave behind my young and troubled years.
I want to,
And I will love those i want to hate.
I want to,
And I will let myself fall free to fate.

I wanted to,
And I have planted seeds and watched them grow.
I wanted to,
And I have had broken hearts, i let them go.
I wanted to,
And I have learned to forgive and forget.
I wanted to,
And I have counted the blessings I have met

i didnt look back

So at the end of high school we were laying together in bed
 and i told her i loved her, but it was time she made a decision,
him or me.
she became stiff.
my eyes i followed her to the edge of the bed
where she sat in her cute purple panties for a while.
Silence.
she grabbed her bra and shirt and threw me mine.
Silence.
i pulled on my shirt, along with my jeans and boots.
i hugged her and kissed her rosy cheeks.
i grabbed her little face.
her pale skin was cold in my hands.
tears were building behind the eyes i had been staring into for the past 2 years.
she shook her head no. but no to what?
"I love you, but he will always be first....."
I let her face go silently.
i imagined her face falling and breaking like a mirror along with my heart.
i walked out of the bedroom and grabbed my jacket off the counter.
 i fidget with the lock on the door.
I could see her shadow in the dimmed doorway light as i opened the front door.
The cold wind choked me with my tears,
 i stopped a second, and i didn't look back.

when diamonds turn to ash

The deception is always more than what i know
and i forget how to breath it in.
Crying is always more energy than is worth


Your voice never echos in my mind
And i kissed you that night,
thinking it was just pretend
then you turned to me and said
"i wasnt kidding"

and i'm a scattered heart
I try playing for fun
but its not my nature.

I hear my phone start to ring,
and my heart, it skips a beat.
it's hardest for me to sleep
Alone.

and lately
I've been doin okay.
But even diamonds break
and i turn to ash.